Friday, September 12, 2014

Count your rainbows, not your thunderstorms.

I got a message from an old classmate about frankincense oil.  She provided me with this link to an article about taking frankincense to help fight cancer.

After reading it I started to research this more and more my husband and I decided to try it out.  I received it yesterday, Sept 11, which marked 1 month since my last treatment.  You can take this topically, internally or by aroma therapy.  Well I tried internally and it was absolutely horrible.  I mixed it with my tea and had to hold my nose to get the rest down.  I kept researching different ways to take the oil and read about rubbing it directly on the tumors, massaging it on my feet, putting drops in a hot bath.  I also read about mixing it with coconut oil, which is used on me while I am at PT.  We  are going to try to mix them together so when we massage around my spinal cord.  Let's hope this works!! 

As far as walking, its s long road!  I feel my legs are getting stronger, of course not as fast as I would like.  My hair on the other hand, is growing like a weed.

Thank you for the love and continued support.  It is humbling to know how many people care.

  "Believe you can & you're half way there!"

Saturday, August 30, 2014

Rescan Update

Well after having a great birthday this past Monday we faced the rescan on Tuesday.  Once again we were told that there was no change and the tumors did not grow nor shrink.  I asked if I am going to have cancer the rest of my life and the answer was yes.  Not the way I planned on starting 28 out.  How do I even prepare for that answer?  How do I even digest it?  Will the tumors ever let up enough to free my nerves so I can walk, bike, live my old life?  I will not be receiving anymore treatments right now, they want to wait until Oct 28 and rescan me...again... and see if there is any changes.

To be honest, I try and stay strong for my family and I keep reminding myself that there are so many people that have it worse than me.  I still take one day at a time and put a smile on my face.  PT is now my main focus.  I set a goal to walk down the aisle at my best friends wedding in October.  I know I may need some help, but if I can make it with a cane that will be a big accomplishment for me.  I feel I am the only thing standing in my way!

I know I have been in so many of your thoughts and prayers, Jon and I are forever grateful for that.  Thank you.

People cry, not because they're weak.  It's because they've been strong for too long.  
Johnny Depp

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Fun in the Sun

Well we just returned from OC MD yesterday and had a great vacation.  Saturday morning rained but we were still able to go to the beach in the afternoon.  The waves were crazy this year, I guess from the hurricane that went out to shore instead of inland, produced big waves and riptides.  Finally on Friday I was able to go in the water.  I just floated on a boogie board...better then nothing!  I always hate leaving the beach, its such a sinking feeling in your stomach, but coming home to Remi always makes it disappear.

So tomorrow is supposedly my LAST Avastin treatment.  I won't know anything until the rescan on 8/26.  Health wise I have been feeling okay.  I think I am still tired from the travels yesterday.

Thank you all for you love, support & prayers.  I still get get well cards and I got one 2 weeks ago that I love:

Life is hard sometimes-
crazy, mixed-up, messed up.
And there you are,
in the middle of it,
just doing your thing...
being strong and brave and beautiful 
like it's no big deal.
But let me tell you girl,
it is.
Not everyone can do what you can do.
Not everyone can handle things
the way you can.
While you wonder sometimes
if you are doing okay...
the rest of us are just watching in wonder.

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

No News is good news

Well at my last scan on the 3rd, the Dr said that there was no major change in the tumors.  I was pretty bummed because I was really hoping they shrunk more.  I have 2 Avastin treatments left, I have one on 7/17.  I am hoping and praying that the tumors shrink with these next 2 treatments.  I then asked the dr if i would ever walk normal again.  His reply was "a lot of prayers, hopes and hard work."

Maybe that is what I am bummed about...walking.  I was so active before and now its like I can't do anything.  Everything is a process and I can't seem to get past that.  I know it is going to be a long road to recovery...but no one seems to know how long.

 It is pretty bad that I look forward to physical therapy.  I love the therapist and for a few hours they make me forget I even have cancer.  PT is going great.  They feel I have made progress, which is always a plus.  I walk with a cane and my therapist holding on right now.  I have really bad balance.  I could only imagine if I had some wine how much worse it could be.

I will try to get better at updating.

I would like to ask to extend prayers to Ashlee Preisach as she awaits news for her transplants.  

As always, thank you for the continued thoughts and prayers.

"When I recover, I will have the courage to admit that I did indeed struggle, that there was a real problem, that I fought for my life and conquered the mountain."

Thursday, June 26, 2014

Keep on smiling...

Wow it has been a while since I have updated.

Let's start with after my last treatment with Avastin we found another blood clot in my back to the hospital we went. They upped my lovenox medicines which jon gives me 2x a day. I did tell the Dr I had a benefit planned for me on Saturday and I couldn't stay. I was discharged on friday.

Saturday was the golf outing. I am so happy I was able to be there and be a part of the fun. I feel it was a huge success and have so many wonderful people to thank. It's amazing how am community comes together to show support.

I made it through that week and made it to Florida on tuesday. What a blast. It is great to see and spend time with family. The weather wasn't our friend until the end of the week. It rained mid afternoon but would get nice in the evenings.  We went out on the boat & went fishing one night.  I can't wait to go back!

Today I had a treatment for Avastin.  I had to get my blood work tears and didn't have to hold a hand...and the results showed my white blood counts are very low. So pretty much I an more susceptible to infections. I have to get an injection to help increase the white blood count.

The dr. Said next week's scan is important because the radiation should be out of my system and we will get a better look at the tumors. Fingers and toes cross it is still working!

I just want to thank you for your thoughts and prayers.  I know I say it every time but  on days when I don't feel like getting out of bed I can feel "team beth " cheering me on.

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

All things are difficult before they are easy.

Well good news travels fast.  I had my rescan yesterday and the Drs were happy with my results.  They said that from my evaluation the strength in my legs is coming along great.  I can wiggle my toes on my right side and can pull my foot back.  My left is still behind, but it is a work in progress.  As far as my tumors go, they show signs of shrinking.  The Avastin is doing its job.  They said we will proceed with this treatment and will have about 4 more.  So another 12 weeks.  I will get rescanned again July 3. 

The blood clot injections are going ok.  Pretty soon my stomach is going to look like connect the dots.  I can't wait for my trip to FL next month and show off all these bruises.  I should just be grateful I am going to FL! 

I'm looking forward to the upcoming weather this weekend!  I have started reading again and am enjoying sitting outside on the new deck.  I'm open to suggestions on books.  I read House Rules by Jodi Picoult last week and am working on Sing You Home this week.

Thank you all for the thoughts and prayers!

Friday, May 16, 2014

DVT update

Yay! I get to come home today. I have been on iv blood thinners since Wednesday and today when I get discharged I will be on injection blood thinners.

They will show me how to give myself injections ... if you don't know I absolutely hate needles. Not looking forward to this but whatever it takes!

Thank you for your prayers and thoughts.