Over the past few days I have been thinking a lot about my past and growing up. I thought about how hard I thought life was then. What a good laugh I got. I can remember stressing about telling my parents about a bad test or a bad grade, report card time, getting suspended over something so stupid I did. I thought about all the relationships I had, the good and the bad. I thought about all the times that I would get "yelled" at by my coaches and my back talking. Everyone in life has relationships with so many different people for so many different reasons. It was like an epiphany, all those hard times, those stressful times, those bad relationships only toughened me up for my future.
Getting through the past 2 1/2 years of dealing with everything, I never wanted to imagine being on the other side of the table with someone I love, someone I devoted my life to, someone who was so strong for me when I couldn't be strong for myself. If I hadn't had those blessons growing up I don't know if I would have been able to handle being the strong one. Life has a funny way of preparing you for what lies ahead.
I've been striving for a stronger relationship with God, giving all my worries to Him, and I feel like He has been carrying me. I am so grateful for my unanswered prayers and my answered prayers.
At my last scan, I showed some signs of improvement. My spinal cord fluid show some signs of thinning and a few "cysts" in my spinal cord showed signs of shrinkage. My left foot is still not improving. I'm coming to terms that I may have drop foot for the rest of my life. If that is the only thing that the feeling doesn't return, I think I will be okay with that. Just have to keep calm and fight on!