If you dream it, you can make it happen.

I'm terribly sorry for the lack of updates! We have had a busy week and by the time we get home in the evening I am exhausted!

To recap everything that has been happening is we are over the hump for radiation! We are hoping march 5th is the final treatment.

We met with my other oncologist that specializes in chemotherapy and I will be rescanned March 25 to see if the radiation got everything. Prayers that it has!

This snow hasn't affected our travels to and from hospitals. Growing up I played in the snow for hours at a time. It makes me sad that I cannot get on the quad or sled ride with my nieces and nephews. I know everyone will moan and grown but hopefully next winter we will be able to make up for it!

I also got my wig today.  Everyone in the family loves it... its just a weird feeling for me. I got my head shaved completely down and I am not used to that. Then I put the wig on and am not used to seeing hair. Brody told me today that he hopes my hair is in by his birthday because if I'm sick I shouldn't come to his birthday... bless his heart!

Today has just been a hard day for me. And I know its okay to have days like today.... a want of normalcy...if that even exists. I guess i would take a perfect day of sled riding with the kids, tubing on the back of the quad & making smores at the campfire.

OK ... back to positive..

  Keep calm & Fight on!

Sisters are angels that lift us to our feet when our wings forget how to fly!

What a weekend!  We were pretty busy this weekend.  Yesterday, Jon, Julie & I went wig shopping and found a wig.  It should be in within a week.  I have been losing so much hair lately that today when I woke up I made the decision Jon was going to buzz it.  I was at the point that I was waking up in the middle of the night to clean off my pillow from all of the hair.  No one should live like that! We had fun with my hair...we put a temporary Mohawk in.  Hey, I'm never going to have the opportunity to do that again...might as well take advantage of it!  Jon said now I will be so low maintenance when I need to get ready and that I now have the screw you cancer hair cut.

After wig shopping yesterday, we made our way to the mall.  It felt good to get out and shop!  Jon and I did our Valentine's Day shopping and gave our gifts a little early.  I got a new watch & Jon got new shades.  Unfortunately, the sun has yet to be out! 

Today we went to my parents house for homemade pizza with the family...and to debut the new do.  Brody's response was "Aunt Bethy you look like a boy!"  He has a good way at making me laugh.  I'll have to teach him when he is old enough to date not to tell some girl that!  My Dad could not believe I had a Mohawk!  It felt good to make them laugh.

I know everyone says, "It's just hair it will grow back" but the moment Jon started I felt refreshed.  I read a saying a while back, "Cancer never had me, I had cancer."  Its true, it may take my hair, my appetite, & my strength, and other things; however, those are things that I will have back.  In fact, today during working out I increased my weight in dumbbells and I also was able to make Jon Sunday breakfast. I am still me.

Thank you again for the continued love and support.

"The greatest glory in living lies in never falling, but in rising every time after we fall." Nelson Mandela

 

   

Fall seven times, get up eight.

Well today was a pretty okay day!  We knocked the nausea out pretty early this morning, so I was able to enjoy a cup of coffee with my cereal today.  That then turned to knocking out my headache quickly. Jon & I did some physical therapy together this morning as well.  It felt good to get back into the swing of things. 

Radiation went well.  I was talking to the girls there about how tender my scalp is feeling and they said that is normal to feel as I start to lose the hair.  Tomorrow I am going wig shopping.  Something I thought I would never be saying at 27 or be looking forward too.  It was pretty freaky today in the shower and see how much hair I am losing.  It is definitely easier to think "Oh, it is just hair it will grow back".  But actually seeing it fall out is something I don't know how to prepare for.  Maybe have Jon shave my head...then we'd be twins.  I guess I just need to handle it the same as I have been handling cancer...One day at a time.

On the plus side, Courtney & Luckey came over with the Wii tonight...I'm pretty sure the Lee's kicked butt! ;)  It was nice to get to play some games to get my mind off everything and still work on my balance.  By this time of the evening, my legs were pretty exhausted.  Plus, we managed to get an ice cream cake out of it.  And thank you Courtney for helping get some more organization to the house! 

Hopefully tomorrow we have success shopping! Thank you again for all your kind and positive thoughts and prayers.  Keep them coming! 

"Those who believe and trust they are strong will always have strength when they need it"